livin in a pickle jar... bigger than the one in stevens...

k so last weekend kev and i went to NMU. amazing trip. and i love it there.
so we went to a few hockey games and it just made me miss soccer infiniti times more. and thats where i wanted to go if i were to play in college... but i wanted to take a year off because of the ankle and adjusting to school and all that BS. but now im like, EF the ankle and i just wanna play competitive soccer, whip my ass into shape and all that good stuff that goes along with being on a team like that. im playin intermurals here, hopefully, with a bunch of boys and a few girls, so we will see how it goes. but the past few days ive been thinking about if NIU was the right place for me. i mean i feel at home here, well, i should since my homecookin is less than an hour away. but it all seems too old already. but i love it. im just in a weird position. so thinking of all this, i was wondering if i should transfer to NMU to play and to get a whole new change of scenery in my life. since im a hippie like that and all. i dont know if im jumping into things? or what.
then today after i took the long way from astronomy, i ran into nikki. and we were chattin bout her roomies and how she needs new ones for next year etc. so i said i would totally be down with living with her. but i didnt mention the thinking about transfering part cuz i dunno if im goin crazy or what... but we would need to sign a lease by the end of the month or so? i dunno that puts a lot of pressure on me to decide what i wanna do.

i lost my train of thought. ill add more later....
peeeeeeeeeeeeeeacelove.